simply confess

I’m only 22 but I feel like I’ve never truly lived and that I’m still so far away from living a life for myself. My mother is too controlling and I’m too weak to just go for it.

seriously what were you thinking when you embarassed me in front of my boss? I mean so what if the project is missing certain elements, you could have walked up to me telling me in my face rather than making a childish scene and pretending I’m not with you in the room. I don’t get why noone talks to me directly!! is it all hints in the bloody workplace????

You fucking killed me.

Guysss i really neEd some help… I dont want anyone to judge .. I just need some advices:/
My bf and i had sex many times we did it once from the front and nothing happened …4 days ago we did it again when we finished i saw blood and i was so shocked i lost my virginity,,, i couldnt sleep since then cz he’s the only dude who ever touched me… And we’ve been together for three years but i never wanted this to happen … I know its my fault and i deserve it but i really wana get over it and try to find any solution idont wana stay this way … Any advice?.:s i really needed seriously im miserable:/

Guysss i really neEd some help… I dont want anyone to judge .. I just need some advices:/
My bf and i had sex many times we did it once from the front and nothing happened …4 days ago we did it again when we finished i saw blood and i was so shocked i lost my virginity,,, i couldnt sleep since then cz he’s the only dude who ever touched me… And we’ve been together for three years but i never wanted this to happen … I know its my fault and i deserve it but i really wana get over it and try to find any solution idont wana stay this way … Any advice?.:s i really needed seriously im miserable:/

I miss him like hell, I wish he’d have given me a chance! How can you even miss someone thats never been yours, I feel so pathetic for missing him… I hope you are and always will be perfect! SA <3

Recently, Ive been feeling really bad about my break up with my boyfriend. It was a while ago, but he makes it very hard to try to forget about him. He texts me all the time and at the last dance there was he wrapped his arms around my waist even though I had a boyfriend. Things were going fine until today. Sometimes I go to his facebook wall just to see how he is. When I did today there was a post about how he is in a relationship with this slut, his ex girlfriend Bethany, who sent him naked pictures while me and him were dating. There were a ton of posts about how much they loved eachother.. and I just broke down & blocked him.

I love her so much i cant describe it…she likes me so much i cant imagine it….but she doesn’t love me like i do love her, she ‘likes’ me cuz im a nice guy…people get soo addicted to drugs, alcohol and other stuff but i got addicted to her!!…i can’t stop thinking of her…how do i make her love me? i think if i ignore her for a while she will feel my absence, thats an advice from her best friend and her ex…im verry sure it would work if i pretend to be quite busy rather than calling every day but its kinda difficult for me to just ignore her!! i just CANT!!!! i know i have to but its difficult!!!! HELP ME OUT PLEASEE I NEED GOOD ADVICEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

N.M :’(

Life (at least that’s what they call it) is one big pile of shit. Daily I am weighed down with feelings of doubt, hatred of others, self hatred, anger, guilt, depression debilitating fear of people, et cetera. I feel like something is tormenting me, like a demon or a spirit or something, I don’t know. Because I am constantly being bombarded by feelings of hatred for god and hatred for religion. Lately I have been desiring to destroy any and all things religious. I wish I could burn a mountain of bibles. I would even like to destroy god. Completely wipe him away from human memory, but I know that is an impossibility. How could anyone love a god who allows evil people to prosper and live abundant lives while little babies are raped, tortured, murdered and starved to death right in front of his very eyes? I could never love a god who does that.

I just want someone to feel pain like I feel it. With each passing day, the need to hurt others grows and grows. The desire to end my own life is just as strong. I am just so sick to fucking death of feeling trapped by “LIFE”. What is the point of life anyway? We eat, sleep, shit and scramble around struggling to make ends meet. We’re all going to die anyway, so what is the point of prolonging things? If you really think about it, we are all better off dead. One bullet to the head and we could be free from all of the bullshit that life throws at us. I know I am just rambling but I just needed to get this off of my chest. I don’t give a fuck if anyone reads it. I just needed to say it.

Hate and anger are the only real things in my life.

my best friend keeps stealing my boyfriends. She has stolen my pas5, but what bugs me is that now, now im in love and i dont want her ruining everything what should i do </3

my best friend keeps stealing my boyfriends. She has stolen my pas5, but what bugs me is that now, now im in love and i dont want her ruining everything what should i do </3

I hate the woman who gave birth to me. I’m 12 years old and you’d be thinking I’d hate her for stupid reasons. Yea, yea… you’re probably right. But it’s a whole new concept in my world. Ever since I was six, I had been slapped on the face… hit and locked in the basement… dark. No, I don’t have a phobia of darkness after that but it’s something I will never forget. I’m still cooling off right now, she almost threw a remote control at me.

Yea, I have a grayed up life now. And when I see my comment up later… I’d be thinking how stupid I was to post it up because… I’d be loving my mom then. How messed up is this?

I’m tired.
I’m tired of living a lie, I’m tired of pretending to be okay all the time, of pretending to be strong when I’m in fact so vulnerable and weak, just to spare my family’s worry.
I’m tired of going to a university I hate, in a major I can’t stand, and pretending that I’m the least bit interested in it so that my parents don’t feel my sadness and take the
matter personally.
J’en ai marre d’être gentil avec tout le monde, et m’occuper tellement de leurs problemes qu’ils oublissent que j’en ai aussi, juste parce que je mens bien.
I’m just… exhausted. I sometimes wish I could just forget all my responsabilities and scream. Scream so loud, so that they know I’m not fine, then maybe they’ll see beyond their problems and start caring about mine.
The world is selfish, it took me 21 years to figure out not to trust anyone.
“Everyone I know goes away, in the end”

After 7 years we finally parted ways. I loved you and still do. I could no longer take the emotional toll of your imbalance and I lost all my capacity to prop you up. It’s been 5 months and I’m still in mourning. You should have been my wife but I couldn’t imagine a life with someone that is so unhappy all the time. I couldn’t imagine raising kids and trying to manage your sadness and self doubt. You want me back but I can’t. I’m exhausted and defeated. All that’s left is this hole in my life and nothing to fill it with other than this sadness. I will recover – you will recover – but for now we both suffer.

I’m in love with a girl but we’re “friends” and its killing me, what do I do?