simply confess

Well… Lately I have been feeling terrible. A situation has been making me sad. Some say that these types of problems are jus lack of real problems, but its just what I feel. I will start the story from the begining: I met my best friend when we were in 3rd grade. We have so many things alike everyone would say we are sisters. That was what made our friendship so strong; however, as years passed by and we began getting older our search for being unique and special became stronger. We used to wear the same sweater for school, change shoes, and even trade dolls; however, now days we try to seem different. Everyone began saying we were the same person, that we “shared brain”, and that got to us in a bad way. Some time ago we started to try and make everything different, even without thinking about it. MY probolem is: I cant take it anymore. She has played piano a long, long time. Since I was little I wanted to play an instrument, but my parents wouldnt encourage me. Later on, I started to play guitar, but deep in my heart I knew it wasnt what i wanted… what inside I really wanted and liked was the piano. Lately that feeling has gotten stronger, and I realized I only played guitar to satisfy a need- that isnt getting satisfied. Everyone would say its easy: just play the piano. Its not. I dont do it because of her. I wouldnt do that to her. That would hurt our friendship so badly, and even hurt her so badly I couldnt simply do it. One of my favorite songs is piano, lately everytime I listen to it I cant help but cry… All I do is keep this to myself so I wont hurt her, but its just growing stronger.

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