I’m 21 years old, and a few times I’ve gotten off to STAGED “incest” porn, generally though it is “step-mom” or “step-sister” stuff, or at least I assumed so.
Anyway, most of them actually just involved the whole chick standing there, talking to you about you jerking off. I’m not at all attracted to my family, to incest, or anything like that – I think perhaps it was a dominance thing?
I saw a couple of videos that actually freaked me the fuck out when they would say shit at the end, or allude to the other character not being of age or something. When I got to this, I stopped – fuck that!
I don’t know how many times I did it – probably not a lot, but I’m feeling pretty bad about it. For the most part, I think curiosity just got the better of me.
To my knowledge, it was always consenting and staged, usually with semi-popular pornstars – and believe me, I went to silly lengths to ensure this. Still, the thought of it now really sickens me, and I don’t know why I got off on it in the first place.
I just want to be a good person, but now I feel like an awful one. I’m cutting my ties with pornography in general, as I think perhaps I haven’t dealt with it the right way so should probably avoid it.
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i feel bad about a lot of things i’ve done in my life. i’ve questioned myself and labeled myself a “bad person” just like you have. but then i look deep inside me. forget the world and other people, fuck them. i look deep inside me and i realize that for a person to be good and wise, he has to be able to admit the bad he’s done. acknowledge what you did and accept it and move on. yes, i did it. did i feel good about it? no, so i’m not doing it anymore. i’m learning from it. i’m learning to experience different things in life from it. that’s how you grow. but if you continue to beat yourself up about it, you’ll never grow.
freddy fried fish
Hey!!! Cheer up ok? the fact that you’re trying to be a better person means you are a good person to start with…
If you want to explore your sexuality get a girlfriend and love her and respect her and respect yourself. What I mean is, sex can and should be healthy not a disease.
You might even consider visitting a psychiatrist.
But don’t worry we all experiment with pornography it doesn’t make you a sick twisted individual, you sound just about normal to me.
L.N.