I’m 21 years old, and a few times I’ve gotten off to STAGED “i*****” p***, generally though it is “step-mom” or “step-sister” stuff, or at least I assumed so.

Anyway, most of them actually just involved the whole chick standing there, talking to you about you jerking off. I’m not at all attracted to my family, to i*****, or anything like that – I think perhaps it was a dominance thing?

I saw a couple of videos that actually freaked me the f*** out when they would say s*** at the end, or allude to the other character not being of age or something. When I got to this, I stopped – f*** that!

I don’t know how many times I did it – probably not a lot, but I’m feeling pretty bad about it. For the most part, I think curiosity just got the better of me.

To my knowledge, it was always consenting and staged, usually with semi-popular pornstars – and believe me, I went to silly lengths to ensure this. Still, the thought of it now really sickens me, and I don’t know why I got off on it in the first place.

I just want to be a good person, but now I feel like an awful one. I’m cutting my ties with p********** in general, as I think perhaps I haven’t dealt with it the right way so should probably avoid it.