So... I've been raped by a person I used to set up higher than anybody else, I've been cheated on in front of my face, i've been treated like a sexual toy

15 years

495 Views

So… I’ve been raped by a person I used to set up higher than anybody else, I’ve been cheated on in front of my face, i’ve been treated like a s***** toy by some of my supposedly “best friends”. Someone made me believe he loved me when he didn’t care, and god knows how much I loved him, how much I’ve given him everything, how much energy I’ve wasted in fighting for him, cause he made me believe he was worth fighting the whole world for him.
My parents? well they haven’t really set a great example on love and marriage. I don’t even know what it’s like having two parents who love each other, I was so little when they cut it off.
So love? Nah, despite all the appearances, I don’t believe in it. I don’t believe in happiness anymore either. I don’t believe in me. People treated me like s***, abusing me, careless. Why would I believe in me? I don’t believe in anything I think. F*** it, f*** it all, I don’t even know why I am still here. Maybe ending it would be the solution. I’ve always qualified suicide as an act of cowardice. But maybe I’ve got it all wrong. Maybe it’s an act of courage. It’s just embracing the fact that some people’s life are way too fucked up to be fixed. For years now, I’ve been trying to fix mine. But with every small gulp of oxygene, the waves come, bigger and bigger, drowning me, deeper and deeper.
What’s the point of resisting? I could just let go, and then I would feel nothing. No pain, no sense of failure, I won’t ever be disappointed anymore. Maybe feeling nothing is happiness. I don’t know.

New Confession

Ferrari F12 Berlinettah at Fifa 2026

Ferrari 812 GTS at Fifa 2026

Nissan 400z nismo at Fifa 2026

Carspotter416
#FIFA2026

Related Confessions

So a-lot of people already know this, especially from our school in Cor Jesus, Digos city,.This person Ashlyn Faith Mangaway Rosillo, named as kanonpyon on facebook, from the Philippines, Digos City. She uses people, is plastic, and doesn’t treat other people well behind the scenes. It was so unfair that miichan or d, was kicked out for all the allegations, such as financial stuff, dating, etc, but this person was also meddling with men in secret but was not kicked out. I think their establishment has unfair treatment which shows what their true values are. Additionally, shes the only member that has been there almost her entire life, to which she cries about to men. She’s being trained to become a ‘leader’ because thea and cherry, who’s already in their 30s by the way and doesn’t want to work; are going to leave when new members are there to replace them. How can she be a leader when she cannot abide by their own rules and policies? Hypocrites.