Archive for December, 2009

Category: a guilt

im 20 years old. and I think a masterbate too much. I want to cut back, but there’s just nothing else to do. Plus i get turned on easily. Damn you advertisers and your “Sex Sells” strategy!
I’m gonna try some self control but only so it doesn’t hurt when I pee.

Category: a pain

i have been living with this guy for three and 1/2 years now first in the dorms and now in an apartment. i have helped him numerous times in his classes so he would do better and tried many times to truly be friends but as much as i try i, i don’t really think we are friends and he just uses me. he is constantly using my big screen tv and stereo with no regard for me, like i don’t want to ever use the tv and stereo i bought. on top of that i use to cook for us but this fool doesn’t even wash the dishes like i simply ask. i always help people and try to do the nice thing but in this situation i can’t do it anymore. all i want to do is punch the dude in his face repeated times. i have talked to him numerous times about the situation but no change has ever been made i even tried to take the tv out the living room so he would get the hint but he still is the same. the worst part about it is i feel we could be the best of friends because we have almost all the same interest i just don’t get why we can’t be friends. So rent is due on the 2nd of Jan and the place to drop it off is only open till 12 tomorrow and the day after and closed on the weekend and he works both days before those times and i had to remind him every other time we had to pay rent. i am hoping he forgets as he always does and has to pay the super high late fee and i will shove it in his face that i didnt and take both my tv and stereo out the living room and see how he feels and not allow him to even touch any of my stuff!…Merry Christmas Motha Explective!!!

I dont know just where im going

Category: a truth

I must share this with everyone. I was in such a tight financial need last night. I need to repay one of my ex colleague. I was devastated as i couldnt find that money. I was crying to God and kept asking Him why? Ive lost my job and i am penny less and this is the time my situation became worst. As i was crying to Him,suddenly i heard my sister calling my name from outside. I opened the door and she came in and she hand over a sum of money. I was dead surprised. She told me my brother told her about the problem ( i told my bro earlier) and she gave the money and i immediately paid the money. All praise to be Him. I blame myself for doubting my own faith and God’s ability. Forgive me Lord and believe me my fellow friends,there’s not even a leaf on earth moving without His knowledge.Praise Lord!

Category: a truth

I like reading other people’s confessions. It’s sort of cool to know that other people are dealing with “stuff” too.

Category: a truth

I am 27 female. I am still single. I am still single and i think i am a lesbian. I cant imagine myself with a man. I am so attracted to woman. I am so confused rite now. I feel so lonely without a woman next to me. I want to feel the love of a woman . I just dont know what to do.

Category: a guilt

There’s this guy that i know of and i got his number from my cousin… The only problem for me from accidentally (on purpose) texting him for somebody else is that im a guy too. What a HUNK!!!!

Category: a pain

So, I had a girlfriend for a while, and we were all kinds of in love, she said she would never leave me, and vice versa, etc (a bunch of kiddie stuff, i know) anyway, she left me for her ex, who left her two years ago. after all the things she said about how she hated him, and was afraid of him, she went back to him. im not really mad at her. im just mad at him. truthfully, almost every night, it seems, i imagine doing something horrible to him, and it just keeps getting worse. i know i should forgive him, but the urge to kill him always surmises.

I used to like someone, then I told him my feelings. He said he just wanted us to be friends. That was very painful. I told everyone I don’t like him anymore but feelings grow intense and I started to miss him and that made me love him even more :(

Category: a pain

ok i know this is going to sound disgusting. but i absolutely hate showering. i “skip” a LOT of days that i should be showering. and the worst part is getting the B.O. I’ll try to cover it up with what i like to call “quick fixes.” anything from sprinkling baby-powder on my pits to just wearing a sweatshirt when its not too hot out. i know i define the word lazy but hey thats just me.

Category: a truth

I confess that I am awesome

Category: a pain

You left your myspace open, I looked in your inbox. My gut has been telling me for a while something was up. Now I know just how much you lie to me. But I don’t know how to confront you with my new knowledge, I love you, but you are killing my spirit and crushing my heart. I thought you were ‘the one’

Category: a guilt

I have been lying about the real me. I have been lying to 2 guys who mean the world to me. The pretty girl they text and call daily, that isn’t my picture. Thats just some random girl. They love her picture, but tell me they love my personality. It makes me hate myself.

Category: a pain

i love him no matter what happens no matter what his friends say and no matter how many times he’s broken my heart. even if i know he doesnt feel the same he’ll always have my heart.

i work with someone who is so hot and attractive and we click-but i am married-and have a god life-i am so torn sometimes-but do whats right