simply confess

I kissed a stranger last night. For the 1st time in my life. And it was amazinnng! he was smooth, and his hands can do wonders!

I’m such a workaholic!!!

It gets soooo frustrating sometimes but i just can’t change!!! I start feeling wrong when there’s no work :S

I’m falling in love with him.
We only started talking because he’s friends with one of my hero’s…
I’m such a bad person…

I constantly try to make everyone happy, and I keep failing. I’m in no good state, and neither are my friends, and I’m not sure I can fix it now.

I miss him so much.
I lost a lover and a friend(or so i thought). He on the other hand, moved on really well.
My friends think he was awful to me. They all have these little plans for me to get back at him.
I originally went along with it, because all i really want is to see him, hear him.
And I know I would get bitched out by my friends if I wanted to still talk to him simply because I miss him so much.

i can get over this. this is silly. stop it. stop it. stop. AAARGH.

A good friend of mine has anorexia, for two years she’s been through so much pain and now she’s leaving, she’s going off to university, and tbh i really don’t want her to go. She’s four years older than me and i look up to her so much, everyday it takes her hours to eat, something as simple as a slice of toast can take up to an hour for her to eat, yet she keeps going and will never let you see her cry. Her dream was to be a dancer and i know that one day she’ll make an amazing dancer, yet does she have to leave now?! She’s not ready, she’s still ill. What happens when she falls and we’re not there to catch her. Im so frightened that she’ll do something stupid she still calls herself ‘fat’ even though she’s completely skin and bones. I feel so helpless, i want her to go and become that amazing dancer, dancing makes her happy. Yet i can’t face even thinking about what could happen as she’s not recovered completely . I want you to know, im ALWAYS thinking of you babe, wherever you are! Please look after yourself, believe in yourself, stay strong. ILY X

i like sex

theres a feeling of depression that keeps consuming me and the things instigating it are so trivial, so sick of feeling like this, and then feeling great the next day, i need a change.

Shot through the heart and you’re to blame
You give love a bad name; (Bad name)
I play my part and you play your game
You give love a bad name; (Bad name)
Hey, you give love a bad name
I think my brain is withering away.
Is that the word?
Thank god for spell check!
I need brain stimulation.

For 3 years I trusted someone at work, we were 4 guys who clicked together. and after all that time, one of the gang blew his cover off during a meeting and turned out to be a RAT and has been kissing the boss’ ass on our expense. I hope his hands shorten and his crotch gets infected by the flees of a thousand camels.

it’s my birthday today and all i face is exams, much more studying and stress. my friends are falling apart, the one i really really wanted to be with wasn’t here today when i needed him. i’m just really tired. i’ve got my mom mad because i was all moody and not in a celebrating mood and would not take a picture. I know it’s really selfish and rude of me and i know the world doesn’t revolve around me. in fact i didnt like today at all because it felt nothing like a birthday. i’m just tired from making everyone happy and it’s not like i’m pretending it’s just i’m working extra hard on it or else we’ll all break apart soon. i just feel like shutting down. but i really couldn’t. i just found out my parents included extra pocket money in my card and i really felt horrible what i’ve done to them. i mean it’s just my birthday but my parents practically created me lol.so yeah im just letting it all out here and yup.

I’m tired of trying to make everybody happy. they don’t bother to help me, or ask me what i need or if i want help. It’s always me who bears the sacrifices. I’m just tired. And the thing is, I’m afraid they don’t love me or like me anymore if i dont do what they want.

what shall i do?

married for 4 years,, never had an orgasim! making love is abt 5 times a year!!! love my husband but dont know if he really loves me,,am upset

Très embarrassant. L’autre jour j’étais avec mon petit ami et son meilleur copain, dans un restaurant. Après quelques minutes de chat, j’ai eu envi de caresser mon chéri. J’ai passé la soirée à caresser ses jambes.
Revenant à la maison, je reçois un sms de son meilleur ami qui me dit qu’il a apprécié mes caresses et qui me demandait quand est-ce qu’on pouvait se voir…