Fuck my life peace out
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Fuck my life peace out
i love him
i love him but i dont know if he’s joking or not
i love him
i really hate being in my own body
i made up a whole character that i want to be but can’t
its causing me so much pain
I know I am only hurting myself by letting this go on and on and on. I just could never and won’t ever want to shake you from my heart. I have never been healthy enough or strong enough to do more than express how amazing you are, and how if things were the way I want them to be, we would make an awesome team. I just want you to know that there are guys like me who genuinely love you and care for your happiness. If I die young, it’s all I want you to know- that I wish I could move the earth to be with you. That and I didn’t want either of us to feel bad, and it’s not true that I said I didn’t move for you. You were a large part of that decision. I just failed. I’ve done many great things in my life so far, but one of them isn’t getting close to the one I really want.
i have been friends with some people online for about 3 years now
basically i was two people with them.
i felt so bad about going on two different accounts and i dont know why i did that but
i lied about that other “person” getting into a car accident. later on i said “they died”
i feel so depressed and guilty about what i’ve done and i know now i could never admit to it all if i want to keep those friends
lately they have been treating me like shit
so i…left them and i dont intend to return until christmas
well i keep thinking some fucked up shady thoughts. fuck it .
i also masturbated in peace a few hours ago. which was super great.
nevermind its gone well the second part at least .
today is my favorite weather..
well fuck it .
if i wasn’t LOOKING for the flaws they might not even be there
i feel sick
i shouldn’t judge people for their taste
but i do
it’s so gross
how can they like it
how freaking immature are they
My friends and I threw a party and I got into a fight. He was drunk and I was barely as drunk as he were. He confronted me to fight him because he heard that I box from one of my friends. I didn’t want to fight him but he kept on insisting. So I decided to take his offer and got into a brawl with him. I feel guilty because the thing was that like I said, I wasn’t as drunk as he was and his girlfriend was there to witness the fight. He didn’t land any punches on me at all and I landed majority of mines and after the fight his nose was bleeding. I feel guilty because I enjoyed the fight.
I often feel very confused when somebody feels guilty about killing another person. I know it’s wrong, but I feel so confused. They were just another person against seven billion. It’s not that big of a deal. I understand when somebody feels guilty about hurting another, though.
suicidal intrusive thoughts again !!! yay :))) fuck my life!!!! nobody loves me!! i am worthless!!!!!!!
Recently, I’ve been having fantasies about shooting up a school. I know it sounds sick but what I feel I would gain from it would be amazing! I’m probably not going to do it but it’d give me the feeling of control and power that I’ve longed for! I never really felt like I was anyone, at least I’ll be remembered when I inevitably get shot to death by the cops.
I want to be loved. I want to feel loved. Am I this bad so that people don’t want me in their life? Why does no one loves me? Why does no one care about me? I ‘m suffocating from loneliness and emptiness. Am I this worthless to everybody? I wanna cry because it really hurt to no being worthy of anyone’s time!
I feel worthless. I’m a nothing. I want to feel important to someone other than my parents. I want friends who would spend time with me and care about what I’m feeling. I want to feel close to someone and share with them stories and adventures. I realised I have no one , no one I can speak to, no one to share my time, my sorrow, my happiness. I feel so lonely and miserable. I’m just like dust.
I… love my boyfriend. It’s a scary notion to think about, but we both love each other. However, our love isn’t exactly…. ethical. He’s 6 years my senior, and lives in another country. And though he may not see it like this, it’s… not going well on my end. I don’t know what happened, but recently the intimacy has died. I feel more like a friend, being an emotional support system rather than his fricken girlfriend. Not to mention, he’s made it clear to me that though I’m serious, he says I need to ‘calm down’ about the idea of getting married because I’m ‘so young’… A whole combination of this has made me extremely apathetic toward our relationship, but I can’t bring myself to contemplate breaking it off with him…. I… I just want him to want me. I want him to crave me as I do to him. I’m just more sexually interested than he is and it doesn’t exactly help my self-esteem on my body image… I don’t know what happened (maybe me confessing my seriousness?) but now he’s just using me as a therapist (in it’s simplest words)…. I’d like to get a male perspective on this if possible. But any help would be appreciated.
I’ve fallen in love with one of my closest friends and I have no clue if he wants me back.
I told him, and he only replied with one of his little comments that he does to tease me.
Its frustrating that he’s all I think about now.